living off the edge
sometimes i feel stuck in the foreplay of a warm vaporous dream
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i’m fascinated by this detachment of being – not being
i crave for new sounds – for intakes of fresh air – for
living off the edge of a clock
each day is transformative – each day rubs forecasts wrongly
corrugated clouds scrape changing summits
people don’t vanish that easily – they sleep amongst religious landfills
*
on the road – i cross a bridge – a lagoon – a fountain at work
often – a self-made fantasy rises from the water
i struggle with the mnemonics of a coded self – silhouettes
known to me – light fires in the dark
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i’m fascinated by this detachment of being – not being
i crave for new sounds – for intakes of fresh air – for
living off the edge of a clock
each day is transformative – each day rubs forecasts wrongly
corrugated clouds scrape changing summits
people don’t vanish that easily – they sleep amongst religious landfills
*
on the road – i cross a bridge – a lagoon – a fountain at work
often – a self-made fantasy rises from the water
i struggle with the mnemonics of a coded self – silhouettes
known to me – light fires in the dark
strange alliance
the movement is quick
methodical
i pull off my jersey
the sun folds it neatly
followers of the man
in the grey boiler suit
talk tactics
for standing on street corners
slapping graffiti
on people’s faces
the day is hooked
as if by its nose
sniffing at cherry blossoms
the wild life of children
at female office workers
sitting on lawns
unwrapping aspects of their menfolk
==
around The Square i count my paces
this ritual never changes
i take ownership of the footpaths
then stop by the carved Taiapa gate
==
i grab my jersey
put it on the church
creaks of wood & brick
with too much carbon dioxide
on its breath sparrows
land on crucifixes old marble prophets
a renaissance figure of human light at the door
==
you arrive you kiss
there’s more to this the sky
condenses steam into herbal-laced
mixtures & hands-on practitioners
drink up
& anything newsworthy
instantly disrupts dissolves
==
a sudden exposure
forces us apart
to find new spaces a youth
plays his flute
to whoever’s riding the clouds
the wind gusts
or thrusting nature’s accessories
at invisible crowds
he’s the sole occupant of his island
logged in & feeding on music
he plays his flute drinks coffee
sticks his fingerprints
on landmarks for the blind
for the hard of hearing
some rituals never change
==
i smell the sweat of nearby sounds
of stacks-on-the-mill offices
we expect a lot
from opening books discussing good art
ensuring
the blue mosaic roof of the museum is part of the sky
==
we enter the long-distance lens
of the grey-garbed performer
preaching about the first birth
first howl
first mouthful of meat
==
at the Taiapa gate
scraps of voices are picked over
by workers returning to their homes
early moonlight
chalks the footpaths
whitens the bridge
fondles stones
we mind map a long night’s journey
into the contours of a metamorphosis
a strange alliance
emerges we let
body cells liquefy
extract core samples
from our solar centres
& for a short time
we live spellbound
attracted our seasons
all entangled
methodical
i pull off my jersey
the sun folds it neatly
followers of the man
in the grey boiler suit
talk tactics
for standing on street corners
slapping graffiti
on people’s faces
the day is hooked
as if by its nose
sniffing at cherry blossoms
the wild life of children
at female office workers
sitting on lawns
unwrapping aspects of their menfolk
==
around The Square i count my paces
this ritual never changes
i take ownership of the footpaths
then stop by the carved Taiapa gate
==
i grab my jersey
put it on the church
creaks of wood & brick
with too much carbon dioxide
on its breath sparrows
land on crucifixes old marble prophets
a renaissance figure of human light at the door
==
you arrive you kiss
there’s more to this the sky
condenses steam into herbal-laced
mixtures & hands-on practitioners
drink up
& anything newsworthy
instantly disrupts dissolves
==
a sudden exposure
forces us apart
to find new spaces a youth
plays his flute
to whoever’s riding the clouds
the wind gusts
or thrusting nature’s accessories
at invisible crowds
he’s the sole occupant of his island
logged in & feeding on music
he plays his flute drinks coffee
sticks his fingerprints
on landmarks for the blind
for the hard of hearing
some rituals never change
==
i smell the sweat of nearby sounds
of stacks-on-the-mill offices
we expect a lot
from opening books discussing good art
ensuring
the blue mosaic roof of the museum is part of the sky
==
we enter the long-distance lens
of the grey-garbed performer
preaching about the first birth
first howl
first mouthful of meat
==
at the Taiapa gate
scraps of voices are picked over
by workers returning to their homes
early moonlight
chalks the footpaths
whitens the bridge
fondles stones
we mind map a long night’s journey
into the contours of a metamorphosis
a strange alliance
emerges we let
body cells liquefy
extract core samples
from our solar centres
& for a short time
we live spellbound
attracted our seasons
all entangled
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Drew Townsend’s inspiration is the land in which he has spent most of his life. His influences are William Faulkner, Cormac McCarthy, William Gay and Larry Brown to name a few. His work has previously been published in The Curlew, a literary nature journal, and his story “The Outer Edge of Light” was shortlisted for The Cambridge Short Story Prize 2020, and was published online at TSS Publishing. He is also an alumnus of Edinburgh University’s Creative Writing masters.
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